“Emancipation Of ˈJu ˈJu” Get it? No? Screw you man.
I see nothing wrong with sharing this, it might help someone. And if I help one person, I’ve done my job.
Warning, it gets a tad graphic.
So hello, my name is Aprill, I’m 30 years old, mother of 5 children, obese, and my uterus is crapping out on me. I suspect my problems started back in 2006. Pickles was one at that time, and one day, after having many normal cycles, mine just stopped.
Poof! #byebitch from July 2006 until November 2006. I attributed it to stress. I remember going to the ER once because I was concerned, and a doctor basically said I was fat, and I needed to take birth control. Ignorant and offended, we (my husband and I), left the ER and went home. Around November, I started having a normal cycle again. From 2006 until now, my bleeding has been all over the place. Sometimes the bleeding would be so heavy it was unbearable. Sometimes I would spot dark brown. That of course, didn’t stop me from having two more babies. After giving birth to Chum (the last baby, 2010), my cycle disappeared again. For an entire year, I didn’t see a period. Not one spot of blood. After taking plenty of failed pregnancy tests, I dismissed the fact that something more serious could be going on, and continued living my life. Around May of 2012, my period came back (yay?) and it was completely normal. June, July, August, September, October, November…. all normal, right on time like God.
December came, and so did my period, and it never left. I ignored the signs, after a month of bleeding non stop, I shoulda went to a doctor. But like a negligent fool, I did not. I continued to suffer until March, when my husband had enough.
So I go to a primary care physician. She tests me for thyroid issues, and there were none. She did a pap smear and everything came back normal, but the bleeding was present and obvious. I get an ultrasound. My uterus is abnormally thick (normal lining is a 6 mine was a 17?). So she says to me “I’m going to refer you to a OB specialist because I think you need a biopsy.” A biopsy? Me? I’m 29 years old, there’s no way in hell I have cancer. My mother in law just died in November from what we suspect was liver cancer. My husband was devastated. I cant do this to him again. And leave him with 5 kids? No fucking way.
I leave the doctor scared, confused, and anxious to go to the OB Specialist that she referred. March is over, April has passed, and May is on it’s way out the door. I havent been contacted for a referral. Meanwhile, I’m still bleeding. I call the primary physician. Her receptionist answers the phone and says that there’s a delay because the OB that I was supposed to see, has more than a few family members that are graduating from high school and college (WTF?). She told me it would be a few more weeks.
Fuck this, I’ll find my own damn doctor.
First appointment I get a biopsy and a pap smear. I come back one week later, he tells me that I have simple endometrial hyperplasia without atypia. He schedules me for a hysteroscopy, and a D&C, which I get done. It was done as an outpatient surgery and I checked in at 5am and checked out about 1pm. I got home and I had little to no pain. My vagina was the biggest thing in pain honestly (Felt like I had been fisted with the long and wide hand of the law). So after a few months, he wanted to talk to me again.
…Simple went to complex
…Without atypia went to with atypia.
Things were not getting better, they were getting worse. Another nine months and I would have Stage 1 endometrial cancer. We could keep playing around with depo shots or, I could just get a hysterectomy.
So I’ve signed my uterus on the dotted line. It’s time for a vacation. On October 10, 2013 (I say that like it’s some kind of PPV event), I will get a complete hysterectomy.
I’m scared. Two of my most important friends, have left me. I have other friends, but on the totem pole of friends, they were up very high. I feel alone, because quite frankly, my mom still has all her goodies, she cant relate. Richard is Richard… he cant relate. Everyone else is so far away…..
I’ve been getting some support. I do have one friend that’s had it done, and she referred me to a forum called HysterSisters. I just joined that today.
I’m depressed. I was given a huge dose of depo. I’m not bleeding anymore (yay?). The headaches are terrible. The depression is a bitch. The joint pain makes me want to jump off a cliff. I’m not irritable. I’m just sad.
I feel….useless. I’m 30 years old and my uterus is crapping out on me. I feel like I am too young to go through this. I ask God what did I do to deserve this.
Why am I sharing this? I just want anyone reading to take a page from my book and make it powerful. Don’t ignore the signs. This is your life, not the doctor’s. You have to make you a priority, even when they will not.
Until my next update.